Strong heart and mind is it there still?

Well I thought I always a strong soul. At this time in my life I have tried to keep strong but I am not sure If I can anymore?! I have been living with my in laws.  Well that's were it begins, we did move in to help our money thing. Also to help them with my father in law with his heath.  They don't let my husband or I do the raising the kids the way we have choosen to raise them to them it is wrong. My father in law is always yelling at them  but the kids scream because they are fighting over a toy. He says "Shut the Hell up"  The bedroom the kids have is upstairs and the one we got (if you want to call it a bedroom) is downstairs.  The kids hate it up there. If they need mommy or daddy Grandpa yells get your ass back to bed.  So we thought we could fix that by letting kids sleep downstairs.  That's when things got more crazy.  We sat everyone down to talk  OH that didn't go well at all!  my father in law got mad and the rest of the week was bad. 
I take the kids downstairs and that makes him mad. but if we are upstairs hes mad.  I have been in pray a lot it help but doesn't stop the hurt. This hurt my husband he has tried to talk to him but then he get yelled at by his dad.

So I trying to handle this but I don't know how?  HOW, HOW, HOW?????!!!!!

Faith, hope, and prayer

Why is it that God tests you when you really don't need more stress? Things are going good and you may have problems but your ok.  Then problems start to rain down on you and just don't see it stopping.  I think writing out what is going on it helps me feel better. 
Well we are having problems with finding a place to move to. Then you got money  and the pills we all need. We are doing the best we can but at times it isn't enough. I just feel I can't be myself  its just so hard. I am grateful I have a great family and friends I can go to when i need them.
  The world thinks that money grows on trees. LOL if it does please show where I can get one for me. Since that's not going to work I will trust in the Lord to guide me. Wish us luck!

One day at a time

Life is slowly  improving I have got back in to my  Avon. I love selling it.  James is working and loving it. Logan loves school he is getting so big.  Kristy is getting big too.  she still cries when Logan goes school.  Oh Kiley is so big we are working on potty training  I hope she is a fast learner.  

Logan's class has a group  and  moms come and help. I help on Mondays it helps me feel so much better.  I feel like I'm a teacher. I always wanted to be a teacher  Heath and school it won't happen now.

The heavens were open and was crying to wecome home a dear friend

Well We lost a very dear friend.  It has really opened our eyes and hearts.  We know that we need to forget and forgive people and ourselves. We really in to apology to  a person but i am not sure if she would let us in to just talk    We hope we can 
I have learn to open my heart and mind and things are getting better  IF she reads this please lets talk email me   I love you I miss your smiling face! 

Forgive and forget

I have learned many things lately, I almost lost my grandma and then I lost my great aunt  then to top it off my great friend Lost her father. he was killed in a house firer to safe a grand son .   It has made me know that I need to enjoy my life. So I really have forgiven everyone who has hurt me. I hope they understand that things are all good . Even if I see them when i am out and about I still will say hello. 

There are heros!

Well I just got told a best friends father died.  He had ran in the burning house to get his grandson out and 3 other people in the home.   Well he didnt make it! He gave his life for his family to make sure they got out safe !!!   He will be missed

Things are looking up!

Things have really changes since I have written.  Well James got laid off  but he was only without a job for 2 weeks. we are very blessed.  We are praying to be able to get the money to move to a home of are own  again.  Thing are very hard to live here  i feel i cant do anything of my way.  Two ways of life is hard.  
Logan is going to school. He loves it very much.  Kristy an Kiley are well  growing fast  i just cant keep up.

Oh boy life

we have had so much stress Laura had #3 seizures. two at home and one in the ER! it was 90 degrees and she was so cold lol. things are better now .

Oh wow what a Month!

Well life has come to stressful time for my family.  We moved in with James parents home.  Its been hard but its ok!  James's father is sick and disabled so we moving in has helped him and taken some stress off his mother.  We also got in to money problems so this has helped us. 

Logan my son, is still asking when do I go to big school. Kristy is realy doing well with potty training!  Kiley is doing good she is having a hard time with no bottles.

James and I are well just taking a day at a time

stress

why is that people you love get hurt  I had a best friend get back stabed again. It brakes my heart!! I cant fix it what can i do?

Why OH Why!!!

Where do I start..... Well, Life has been just so hard I just over I get sick.  I have 3 very active kids so I am running everywhere. I love my family.  Its just so stressed full, I have a sister-in-law I love her but I know She hates me. I have something That I hope she can receve one day. It hurts so much to know I mean KNOW she hates me.  I have always thought of myself as a likeable person.  I really dont know how to handle this. 

To top it all off I feel like I have let everyone down I just cant do anything right. 

Now I am just wishing, wishing on a star PLEASE help me to work things out!

OH Life!

Oh well, Life is so stress full! I have had to deel with so much stuff this year.  I am so shocked I haven't been put in the hospital! Things are so hard and i just do not know if I can handle my life!!!!

This month Sucks!

February Is suposte to be the month of love not for my family. A friend now ex friend hurt my family. How do you feel and think when someone hurts you ? HOW?

Me

I am doing ok. But I have had a headack all day today. I talked to my mother and come to find out I have been having mini sezures today. I hate having this .  i feel like i am more of  a problem than anthing. I hate it!!

Life!

Well we are doing good. James is so glad to be back to work. The shut downs are nice ,but are so hard the money. I'm doing ok for now. I have had so much heath problems. I think that my heath problems will never leave so I'm ok with that.
 Logan is doing so great at school. It started tough, but its doing much better. He is such a big helper. Logan love to help with the dishes. I wish i did. LOL!!!!
Kristy is potty training. OH boy it has been tough and funny. She love to have pantys on. I hope she will be in them all the time ASAP!
Kiley is walking everywhere. Oh top of that she is climbing on eveything too!